Some exercise in the afternoon...

Me (1:10:12 PM): hey

Him (1:10:20 PM): hi Snakehead

Me (1:10:28 PM): it's good seeing you yesterday

Me (1:10:32 PM): been a long time

Him (1:10:50 PM): You saw me at my best ...

Me (1:11:32 PM): ha

Me (1:11:37 PM): getting cocky aren't we?

Him (1:11:53 PM): to you

Me (1:27:25 PM): so what you up to?

Him (1:27:41 PM): Right at the moment, I'm preparing a syllabus

Me (1:28:13 PM): i thougth you're jerking off

Me (1:28:15 PM): hahaha

Me (1:28:17 PM): just kidding

Him (1:28:27 PM): I did that this morning -- twice, actually.

Me (1:28:41 PM): wow

Me (1:28:43 PM): twice

Me (1:28:47 PM): very impressive

Him (1:28:52 PM): yeah, I've been horny.

Me (1:28:57 PM): heh

Me (1:28:58 PM): me too

Him (1:31:20 PM): oooh ... that's hot

Me (1:32:14 PM): so i'm getting you all hot and bothered?

Him (1:33:53 PM): in a good way

Me (1:34:21 PM): i'm sure. coz i'm good at it

Me (1:37:51 PM): are you wacking off now?

Him (1:59:05 PM): tell you in a bit; there are several people here in my office right now!

Him went idle at 2:10:13 PM.

Him returned at 2:12:47 PM.

Him (2:14:00 PM): whew -- everybody is gone now and the door is closed

Me (2:21:46 PM): haha

Me (2:21:55 PM): busy day

Him (2:40:05 PM): My sexual frustration makes it hard to get other things done.

Me (2:40:34 PM): well then you've come to the right place

Me (2:40:44 PM): i'm good at taking care of sexual frustration

Him (2:43:24 PM): yikes!

Me (2:46:01 PM): but i'm not a slut

Him (2:47:00 PM): you drive me wild!

Me (2:47:48 PM): really?

Me (2:47:52 PM): how wild?

Him (2:49:07 PM): Well, I was just thinking about your cute butt and the whole syllabus thing is falling apart.

Me (2:49:55 PM): if you come over now you can see it up close. you can even touch it!

Him (2:51:45 PM): really?

Me (2:52:15 PM): really

Him (2:53:36 PM): where are you?

Me (2:53:48 PM): at home. alone

Him (2:53:59 PM): but where's "home"?

Me (2:54:14 PM): this street and that street

Me (2:55:01 PM): close to that store

Him (2:55:55 PM): I wouldn't mind stopping by for a little visit ...

Him (2:56:01 PM): I'm at school right now -- not that far

Me (2:56:23 PM): i wouldn't mind some company...

Him (2:59:04 PM): what's your exact address?

Me (2:59:23 PM): 1234 this street

Him (2:59:55 PM): I'll be there in a bit.

Me (3:00:10 PM): how long?

Him (3:00:34 PM): not long

Him (3:00:54 PM): I walk fast.

Me (3:01:22 PM): k

Him signed off at 3:05:33 PM.

Nip/Talk

I don't like the way my nipples look anymore. They used to be round and perky. Now they're flat and elongated sideway. I need a nipple clamp or something.

Delusion.

It’s 5.40 in the afternoon. He’s been at work since 7.30 in the morning. He’s tired, hoping to catch a short nap on the uncomfortable bus seat. He rests his head on the window and closes his eyes.

Suddenly, the bus jerks and stops. He opened his eyes, and catches a glimpse of a man boarding the bus upfront. This man takes his breath away.

He has high cheek bones, the ones that everyone is dying for. His complexion is so flawless he could star in a cosmetic commercial without any makeup. His Mohawk style, blonde tip brown base hair is perfectly styled with a too much product. Not a single strand of hair is out of place. He smells of hair product and deodorant. His eye brows, although appears natural, shapes like two perfect caterpillars sitting above his mesmerizing eyes. His sexy lips look extremely inviting. His loose fit tee does not hide his workout, nicely toned body.

This man is so good looking, it would be a complete waste if he is straight.

This man move further into the bus, and settles down two feet away from him. He admires him. This man is without question, completely out of his league.

Suddenly, he got very angry. He’s very angry at this man. As the clock ticks he became more and more furious at this man. There is no why. Just is. He’s angry at this man and everything that he represent.

Where did this anger came from?

He admits that part of it is due to jealousy. But that’s just a small part of it.

All his life, he’s been trying to be unconventional. Because he’s not the best or the most or the number 1 in anything he does, he’s been trying to do things differently. To be unconventional. He’s straight acting. He doesn’t like to hang out with too many gay guys. He doesn’t like being around flaming homosexuals. Unconventional. Do things differently. He doesn’t use tons of facial product, like the conventional gay guys who care too much about their look. He doesn’t have the short Mohawk hair style that is so typical among the gay guys. He doesn’t look gay at all.

And then this man came on the bus and shattered all that.

He’s angry at himself for finding this man extremely attractive. This man, who stands for everything he doesn’t believe in. This man, who is so stereotypically gay, his picture should be posted next to the word ‘gay’ in dictionaries.

This man, whose breathtaking beauty has shown him one thing.

He shows him that after so many years, he is still insecure about himself.

Evidently he’s been deluding himself all this time.